“If you get down on your knees… you are likely to become exquisitely aware of what you are doing.” ~Barbara Brown Taylor
Here in Traverse City I enjoy working every day hauling water and getting down on my knees in what we call the Big Garden. Silence reigns. Most days I don’t think with words. Closing out the drone of passing cars I attend to the heart of silence.
This sounds simple enough; staying in what British psychologist D.W. Winnicott called “play space” or “potential space” for this willingness to let things be while we attend to some inarticulate space.
Right now I’m living in the experience of sharing a small apartment with a permaculture teacher and studying and working with her students and colleagues in the community and urban gardens. Family and friends are asking “what is your plan?”
It’s not so much that we’re afraid of change or so in love with the old ways but it’s that place in between that we fear. It’s like being between trapezes. There’s nothing to hold on to.” ~Marilyn Ferguson
As I ride my bike home from the gardens I think about my mission to learn about shared housing. The practical and competitive part of myself says, those who want to know my plan are right. Hurry. There isn’t much time left. Others will “get there first.”
Where? There are a growing number of blogs and websites and even books promoting shared and co-housing. Many give advice. I can’t.
I can share likening permaculture gardening to people planting a community. I’m in the confusing complexity stage, the place where folks are apt to get stuck or quit.
I continue to grow and share my vision – a building large enough for a small group of women to share, each with her own bedroom, room for a big enough garden to supply vegetables and berries, the ability to ride a bike or walk to amenities like markets, the movies, library, restaurants and a beach or a park – a space to be alone. I envision a place to become involved in community, make art, and create beautiful surroundings for everyone to enjoy… an open community where all people are accepted, appreciated and encouraged to share their skills and be themselves.
My current reality is observing, noting and not editing, wondering and researching …